As we approach the Easter holiday this weekend, I am reminded of my Grandma and her traditions she used to do with the family. Going to her house after church, my Uncle Dirt cooking breakfast, figuring out how many plastic eggs each grand kid had for the Easter egg hunt, counting how many pieces of candy were in the plastic egg, all of those little things. Now that she's been gone for 3 years, we no longer have any of that and its hard to get used to.
I miss her so much and other days I just think about her a lot. Since she's been gone, lots of changes have happened in the family. Marriages, births, new jobs, loss of jobs, all kinds of things. And as I live my life through these big changes, I have noticed that the family is not as close as they used to be when Grandma was alive. Our family has drastically changed, and not so much for the better. If Grandma was alive, my gut tells me none of these changes would be happening. I find it so sad. Very sad! It's embarrassing sometimes to talk about it because some days I just think to myself how can people behave the way they do or feel the way they do and expect no consequences to come of it? Whatever happened to being kind to your family through thick and thin?
When Grandma was alive we used to get together all the time and would get excited about being together. I loved loved loved going to Grandma's house and seeing her. I loved talking to her. You could talk about anything with her, and the best part was she would never judge you. Ever. She would speak her mind about whatever it is you are talking about, and give her advice/opinion whatever it may be. Plus, she really listened to what you had to say. Now that she's gone, her house has been sold and no more going to Grandma's house. I really miss talking to her and really wish she was in my life right now. I used to randomly call her up and talk about whatever was on my mind, she would listen to me and make me feel like whatever I had to say was the most important thing in the world to her. I miss that soo soo much.
I will hear of things that happened with family or friends of the family, and then I find out the reaction on the situation. OMG. I have no words for it. Everything is such a big deal and they go on and on about the littlest things. What about being supportive of family? I am sadly finding none of that is there anymore since Grandma has been gone and it's so disappointing.
My parents have done a great job in making new traditions with the holidays by having most gatherings at their house now, I am grateful that I have the best parents in the world. They care about everyone and always put others before themselves.
I hope my Grandma is looking down on everyone and praying for us all! Missing my Grandma is hard some days, she was a special lady that made the world a little bit brighter. I needed to get some of these things off my chest so thanks for letting me share.
Happy Easter everyone!
And to my Dad, thank you for sending this...
"Don't just pretend to love others. Really love them. Hate what is wrong. Hold tightly to what is good."
- Romans 12:9
